update

after a long absense the grizzly bear has come out of hibernation. she's happy and stress-free, just dont tell her cubs:)

Update
PMS-gone
Lump-benign
Afterschool sports- done for the moment! yaay
kids report cards- great
gas tank- full (for the moment)

Hopefully her mama bear instinct wont rear it's ugly head at the dentist tomorrow. her youngest cub is getting a filling tomorrow and they have to sedate him to do it b/c he is so young. Explain to me how a kid who had 2 siblings with no cavities still, already has his first at three.
Actually dont explain it b/c i know and its the mama bear's fault. Not as diligent with the oral hygiene by cub #3 but that has now changed. He has the cleanest teeth in the san joaquin valley.
Cub # 3 also has started the annoying and odd habit of talking about himself in the third person.
"Andrew doesn't like the dentist".
"Andrew is hungry."
"Andrew wants a peanut butter tortilla"
Maybe he has been watching too much Star Wars and is identifying with Jar Jar Bink's speech patterns.

PMS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM A GRIZZLY BEAR TODAY
STAY AWAY
HIDE YOUR CHILDREN
AND YOUR CHOCOLATE
DISAGREE WITH ME AT YOUR OWN RISK
DON'T BREATH TOO LOUD
I'M NOT YOUR MAID
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

open windows

the weather is changing.
doors and windows open.
fresh air streaming in.
long pants long sleeves.
apples in the supermarket.
pumpkin patches on the corners.

don't feel so cooped up.
amazing how a open window lightens my day.
ready to accomplish something.
not just hibernate away from the heat.

break out the crock pot.
time for stews, meatloaf , and pot roast.
mugs of steaming tea
Coffee warming my tummy.
defrosting me from the chill.

change of seasons like a new beginning
time for change.
chance to be a better me.
summer jen is gone.

Introducing fall jen.
she cooks, cleans, sews.
has time for God, husband , kids and self.
All in balance.

CHECK ME IN A WEEK TO SEE HOW WELL I KEEP IT UP.

I AM MY MOTHER

Let me start by saying i love my kids.
they are a blessing that i cant begin to be worthy of having.
I love all 3 of them and more importantly genuinely like them.

BUT...

how do you get through to a chronic airhead.
And before you assume its the girl it is not.
my middle born is the sweetest, most thoughtful kid you will ever meet,
but he cant remember ANYTHING.
for the past week i have asked him everyday if he has the items he needs to bring home after school and EVERYDAY he has forgotten something.
i have taken away TV , docked allowance, i even went to talk to teacher. Nothing seems to stick.
is it a passing phase?
is it a middle child thing?
HELP
i am becoming the nag that i swore i would never be.

Pushing it

I consider myself a pretty positive person.
i also consider myself a big sports fan.
The 49ers are the object of one of my fanaticism.
HOWEVER...
yesterday they pushed it with mes.
I had tickets to the game with Seattle.
I got up early , a true sign of my love since i loathe early mornings,
and drove 4 hours to the bay area.
Parked in what seemed like Oakland and paid $25 for that priviledge.
walked about a mile+ thru drunks and beer cans.
Made it to my seat and believe it or not i was still excited to see the game.
I saw the journey as a rite of passage for a true niner fan.
we are call the 49er faithful aren't we.
Yet what proceeded tested even the most faithful fan.
I can honestly say that the football game was the worst professional sport event i have ever seen.
fumbles,penalties,injuries,penalties,interceptions,penalties.
I felt like i was watching a pop warner game without the adorable rugrats in uniforms 10x's too big for them.
at one point my friend and i were convinced that they had more backward yardage in penalites than forward yardage in rushing and passing.
DISGUSTED
we left after the 3rd quarter to beat the rush out of the parking lot.
or so we thought.
2 HOURS before we were even out of the parking lot.
a trip that with no traffic takes 4 hours took 6.5 hours.
i spent 10.5 hours in the car, walked 2 miles, and saw the worst game in history of the niners.
This may be my last live professional game.
I would much rather watch at home in comfort with clean bathrooms, no driving, cheap food instant replay.
THAT BEING SAID...
i still love the niners and can't abandoned them
maybe we just need a little time and distance apart.
a break
i think 6 days will do it