NEW YEAR

Im not a join w/ the crowd girl
if everyone is reading the book
or watching the movie
or joining the diet
i tend to shy away or wait.
i also dont enjoy being told
to turn to the person next to me in church
and say something...God loves you etc.
not that i dont feel that God loves them but
i want to tell them in a genuine conversation
not b/c i have been told to do it in mass obedience.

all this to say i need to lose weight.
a lot of weight.
yet i dont want to do it now b/c everyone is dieting.
i also dont want to fail yet again
i've tried MANY times .

i dont enjoy being fat.
i feel like i am letting down so many people.
mom, bri, kids, extended family, myself.
im the only one with weight problem.
so far no health problems but i know im ticking time bomb.

so... im trying yet again.
or as yoda says
not try...do
could this be the year?
20 years since high school.
reunion may be the motivation.

so goodbye McD's
goodbye drive thrus
goodbye flavored creamers
goodbye cookies and chips.
its been fun but our days together are thru.
dust off the treadmill.
park far in parking lots.
where did i put that pedometer?
i can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me.

Pets

I love my pets. i love my pets
if i keep saying it i wont drop kick them.

took them to petsmart clinic today.
no office fee just shots fee.
just to get my dogs vaccinations current
$130.00

cat had to be de-wormed
gross i know but vet said it b/c of fleas
tigger is an outdoor cat who brings them
one-time medicine at $25 at cat.

discount clinic cost me $180
didn't even get the cat vaccinations
got there at 2:30
didn't leave till 4
3 kids 2 cats 1 dog
1 grumpy mom

i love my pets i love my pets
oh wait whats this...
jonah pooped in our room &
someone peed on andrew's floor
i love my pets. i love my pets
I LOVE MY PETS!!!!!!!!!

coming out of a christmas fog

well we made it.
the Christmas season is finished.
we packed up ALL the decor and lights today.
i was telling brian that i love putting up the decor
but i love taking it down just as much.
why is that?
how could something bring you joy one month
and then you are so glad to pack it up.

Christmas wasn't what i expected. good just different.
lots of family and traveling.
family can be hard.
the longer we are apart the harder it is to be together.
my brother in law said some very wise words to me.
your problem is you have expectations.
the key is to have no expectations
then you are not disappointed.
good advice but hard to do.
maybe that is a good new year's resolution
no expectations.
i hope i can do it.
i wont expect too much. :)

here is praying 2008 will be a great year filled with
LOVE
JOY
LAUGHTER
PEACE
HEALTH
AND HAPPINESS.

AMEN

wrapping

I have finished wrapping my presents!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now i can officially enjoy Christmas!
All i have left to do is baking and cooking and cleaning.
O.K.... now i can officially enjoy being done with wrapping!
this picture is my motivation .
a ghost from Christmas Past.