Today is the birthday of my baby girl Anneka.
She would have been 5 today.
I can't believe it has been that long.
Such a time of sadness and yet extreme joy in my life.
Sadness for the dream that did not happen.
For the daughter I would never know.
The disappointment of my children and family .
Experiencing childbirth without getting the gift of a child.
Yet the grace and joy that God gave us during this time was immeasurable.
Joy of realizing the love and care of our friends, family, and church family.
Joy of seeing our faith made real.
Realizing the strength I felt was not mine, but a gift from God.
The joy of realizing how amazing and miraculous Graham and McKenna are.
The joy of closeness that Brian and I felt for each other.
Some couples drift apart during childbirth crisis.
We clung together.
Being able to trust God in another pregnancy even after losing Anneka.
God gave us strength in our weakness!!
So now instead of focusing only on the sadness of losing Anneka,
I try to focus on the joy and blessings her life gave me and my family.
We are better for loving and knowing her.
We all look forward to reuniting with her.
She was a sweet gift that I thank God for letting me be a part of.
I miss you sweet girl.
Happy Birthday Anneka Marjorie
2 comments:
God is good.
Unfortunately in 5 years I still have not come up with the "right" words to say, except that I love you and cherish you and your family!
What a sweet reunion that will be!
=^..^=
I was just thinking about that day Kathy told me you lost the baby, and the irony of the first call we had about kathy. It was like i've been here before. Thank you Jesus for all the blessings you have givin us, the great times and difficult times. We love you guys no matter what times they are. Happy Birthday.
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