the fan in fanatic

watched the super bowl yesterday-
LOVED IT!
not my teams but a great game!
defense was the game!
no one gave in!
fought till the end!

found myself screaming in excitement
its just a game i tell myself
why is it so important to me ?
i peek at the action through my fingers
i cant stand the suspense.
its not life or death-
its not effecting me personally
yet
i am yelling at family not to jinx the giants
don't change your seat or they might lose
don't celebrate till the last sec has passed or they might lose
don't be too cocky on sidelines or they might lose.

i think i still am dealing with the effects of the stanford cal game
from my childhood.
when the band became part of the defense.
they jinxed themselves by celebrating before the end of the game.
or maybe its because i played so much girls softball growing up
i cant even remember how many games i saw change their fate with 2 outs in the last innning.
we even had a cheer.
rally on 2
rally on 2 rally
on rally on rally on 2
woooo

so all this to say- i see where they got the term fan
we are fans- fanatics
fanatics when it comes to sports
fanatic when it comes to superstion with sports
fanatic when it comes to our emotions during a game.

and now i will regroup.
become a normal person for a few months
until april and then it will all start again.
cheering for the giants again.
not new york's but san francisco's
GO GIANTS!!!!!!!!!!