Early spring cleaning

i have to clean my house .
i haven't even started.
our house is never too out of control.
clutter is picked up.
Brian hates clutter.
I once asked him what would make him feel loved
when we walked in the door after a day of work?
dinner ready?
make-up on?
time to himself to decompresss?
etc.
He picked a straightened up house.
that's it!

But ... i need to CLEAN
not straighten
because we are having a dinner here for Brian's mens group.
they do a valentine's dinner for the wives.
the people coming don't care if the house is spotless
but sometimes you just feel like putting your best foot forward
and the house sort of needs a good cleaning.

i dont mind cleaning once i start,
but like everything in my life.
it is the starting that is the hard part.
i am the queen of procrastination.
i need to pressure of a deadline.
So i have one .
And a good excuse to give my house a good cleaning in the process.

Stewart Colbert vs Conan, FINALE (080204)

february blahs

i think i need to make a new rule
plan a fun trip in Februrary
every year.
this is the time of year that i just have the blahs
its cold
its dark
nothing to watch or cheer for.
Christmas vacation long gone
summer so far away
i just want to hibernate but with kids you cant
so i end up having bad attitude about going anywhere
do we have to go to Awana tonight?
quiz practice again?

this is when the "less of me" is hard
less of me more of you Lord!
if i do what i want, or try to do it in my strength
Bad Attitude- Failure
but if i do what i think i dont want but let God work thru me
He blesses that.
Start Awana in a bad mood
End Awana praising God for the girls and the joy of Christian fellowship.
Hate going to quiz practice
LOVE watching my kids compete and seeing the blessings of them knowing God's Word.

SO the solution for the blahs is either a great trip
which i STILL think i will plan :)
or
more time in the Word and in service.
Less of me and more of You

the fan in fanatic

watched the super bowl yesterday-
LOVED IT!
not my teams but a great game!
defense was the game!
no one gave in!
fought till the end!

found myself screaming in excitement
its just a game i tell myself
why is it so important to me ?
i peek at the action through my fingers
i cant stand the suspense.
its not life or death-
its not effecting me personally
yet
i am yelling at family not to jinx the giants
don't change your seat or they might lose
don't celebrate till the last sec has passed or they might lose
don't be too cocky on sidelines or they might lose.

i think i still am dealing with the effects of the stanford cal game
from my childhood.
when the band became part of the defense.
they jinxed themselves by celebrating before the end of the game.
or maybe its because i played so much girls softball growing up
i cant even remember how many games i saw change their fate with 2 outs in the last innning.
we even had a cheer.
rally on 2
rally on 2 rally
on rally on rally on 2
woooo

so all this to say- i see where they got the term fan
we are fans- fanatics
fanatics when it comes to sports
fanatic when it comes to superstion with sports
fanatic when it comes to our emotions during a game.

and now i will regroup.
become a normal person for a few months
until april and then it will all start again.
cheering for the giants again.
not new york's but san francisco's
GO GIANTS!!!!!!!!!!